Humility or Insecurity

So the Lord said, “behold he is hiding himself by the baggage.”
1 Samuel 10:22


Observation:
The first king of Israel was very handsome and tall but struggled with his inner confidence. Saul was from the smallest family of the smallest tribe, the Benjamites (1 Samuel 9:21). But he was chosen by God to be the king over the people. God gave the Israelites what they asked for, a king like the other nations, a man that would lead them into battle. Such behavior was a sign of the people’s rejection of God. They attributed their difficult fate not to their unfaithfulness but to God’s way to lead the people. They thought that having a man ruling over them would be better that having God over them. So God granted their request and gave them a tall handsome man to rule over them. But layers deep Saul was insecure. He had the looks and the muscles but he lacked heart.
Saul’s struggle with the idea of being king could be taken as reactions of humility. But the fact that he hid himself reveals that he was terrified, not humbled by the calling of God in his life. God even poured His Holy Spirit upon Saul in order to change his heart and make him confident in the assignment The Lord laid for him (10:6,9). However, Saul was unwilling to change in the deepest layers of his heart and struggled with insecurity not only at the beginning of his kingship, but for the rest of his life.


Application:
Insecurity has the potential to divert our true calling and makes us the subjects of the effects of external trails. Even though the Holy Spirit has changed our lives and made us a new creation, if we don’t expose the layers of insecurity in our lives from the beginning, our progress in our walk with God will be very difficult. We cannot allow insecurity to be a motivation for our actions. We cannot lead well if we have insecure thoughts, insecure feelings, and insecure actions. Is true that we must stay humble by God’s call in our lives, but we must never enter into the real of insecurity. The enemy will try everything to turn our humility into insecurity. We must be quick to help each other to stay humble. Humility is the balance between pride and insecurity. Walking in pride is as dangerous as walking insecure. People that struggle with either each will have the tendency to go to extreme opposite in pursuit of perfect balance. Such wavering of character will create an emotional rollercoaster that plums us down into frustration and defeat.
Today the Lord is encouraging me to stay humble, but careful of not enter into the real of insecurity. I cannot lead others and myself well if I struggle with insecurity. I must help others under my care to defeat the tendency of insecurity in their lives. The best way to stay humble is by staying true to ourselves. We must be objective with our own abilities and objective with God’s calling over our lives. The lord will never call us to something we are capable to do. He wants to be with us and work miracles in our midst. Our humility comes form recognizing that apart from God we are worthless, and our confidence comes from the fact that He who is in our side is stronger than those against us. We will conquer God’s will for us. And we will honor God as long as we follow His calling with humility and confidence.


PRAYER: Dear Jesus, please forgive me for the times when motivated by self-righteousness I have walk in the realms of insecurity. Please give me the confidence that your Holy Spirit provides in order to be the leader you have called me to be. Help me to lead myself well so I can lead others well. Give me favor to help those under my care to be more humble and confident in your calling. AMEN!